Crème de la crème.

Some people in my life have been absolutely wonderful to me, and those same people have at times have been awful to me. I don’t take for granted everything they have done for me, but I have a problem. I never forget the bad things people have done to me. I know you are supposed to forgive people, but nearly every bad thing someone has every done to me, I remember it perfectly. This is where the problem comes into play. Sometimes I believe I remember more of the bad things then the good things. I can’t help it. So does this mean I don’t actually forgive them? Maybe, I’m not sure. I hate this about myself, but once you’ve hurt me once, you’ve pretty much scarred me forever. I sometimes forget the good stuff, but never forget the bad stuff. Why is that? It makes me feel like I don’t appreciate the good people have done for me. I truly do, though. I’m so thankful and blessed, I never forget that. It’s just that I tend to remember negative things, even if that positive out ways the negative. I’m going to try and work on this, but I don’t know where to begin.